[It's a bit of a conundrum. The fact that Claude is so respectful of his boundaries is something Dimitri takes a great deal of comfort in... But at the same time, without a little bit of push and pull, he also just doesn't have the experience to really know quite what to do. Part of him wonders if maybe he should simply ask, to not dance around this so much and be more direct as he tends to prefer when it comes to most things. Somehow though, the idea of it all just seems so embarrassing. Surely if he likes Claude so much and wants to get to know him as best he can, he should be able to gleam something this simple on his own, right?
Of course, what he doesn't realize either is that for all that their relationship has been fast and furious and out of the ordinary, this part of it is more typical. For things to be a little awkward here and there as they get to know each other in this new way, stumbling around a bit in trying to express these feelings he's never felt before... On an objective level, Dimitri knows these things, but with things still being so new, it's yet to really sink in that it would extend to the physical aspects of their relationship as well.
For the moment though, he tries his best to push that nervousness from his mind. Claude leans his head against him so easily after he scooted closer, his heart practically blooming in warmth because of it. Despite not saying anything, Claude makes his message plenty clear: Dimitri knows that he's comfortable, at ease, relaxed. He can tell immediately that Claude likes being here with him like this, and as leans his head against Claude's, a wide grin spreading across his face, he knows he likes being here together like this just as much.]
I certainly hope so. In some ways, it felt like such a journey just to reach where we are... But I'd rather this journey never end at all.
[And just like that, all of Dimitri's attempts to relax and push his nerves aside come crashing to a halt.
That wasn't—was that too forward? Too much? Did he basically just say he never wants their relationship to end? It's all true of course, there's a part of him that already thinks they could get married tomorrow and he'd be the happiest man on earth for the rest of his life—But isn't it far too early to say something like that so new into a relationship? Maybe there's a platonic way to interpret it, even though they're talking in the context of their romantic relationship so probably not. Granted, if they did actually break up, Dimitri's sure he would so desperately want to remain friends even if his heart remained shattered and broken for the rest of his life—
While Claude's thoughts are jumbled and scattered, Dimitri's are shooting off at the speed of light in an embarrassed, flustered whirlwind of emotions.]
I, um— That is— [He groans, lifting his head away from Claude so he can bury it in his free hand instead.] Sorry, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...
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ignoring how embarrassingly long this took me (and it's not even the worst offender)
Of course, what he doesn't realize either is that for all that their relationship has been fast and furious and out of the ordinary, this part of it is more typical. For things to be a little awkward here and there as they get to know each other in this new way, stumbling around a bit in trying to express these feelings he's never felt before... On an objective level, Dimitri knows these things, but with things still being so new, it's yet to really sink in that it would extend to the physical aspects of their relationship as well.
For the moment though, he tries his best to push that nervousness from his mind. Claude leans his head against him so easily after he scooted closer, his heart practically blooming in warmth because of it. Despite not saying anything, Claude makes his message plenty clear: Dimitri knows that he's comfortable, at ease, relaxed. He can tell immediately that Claude likes being here with him like this, and as leans his head against Claude's, a wide grin spreading across his face, he knows he likes being here together like this just as much.]
I certainly hope so. In some ways, it felt like such a journey just to reach where we are... But I'd rather this journey never end at all.
[And just like that, all of Dimitri's attempts to relax and push his nerves aside come crashing to a halt.
That wasn't—was that too forward? Too much? Did he basically just say he never wants their relationship to end? It's all true of course, there's a part of him that already thinks they could get married tomorrow and he'd be the happiest man on earth for the rest of his life—But isn't it far too early to say something like that so new into a relationship? Maybe there's a platonic way to interpret it, even though they're talking in the context of their romantic relationship so probably not. Granted, if they did actually break up, Dimitri's sure he would so desperately want to remain friends even if his heart remained shattered and broken for the rest of his life—
While Claude's thoughts are jumbled and scattered, Dimitri's are shooting off at the speed of light in an embarrassed, flustered whirlwind of emotions.]
I, um— That is— [He groans, lifting his head away from Claude so he can bury it in his free hand instead.] Sorry, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...